i'm so tired of being here suppressed by all of my childish fears and if you have to leave i wish that you would just leave because your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal this pain is just too real there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears and i've held your hand through all of these years but you still have all of me

you used to captivate me by your resonating light but now i'm bound by the life you left behind your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal this pain is just too real there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears and i've held your hand through all of these years but you still have all of me

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone and though you're still with me i've been alone all along

my immortal- evanescence

my almost daily update on my boring life... blah blah blah

04.16.03 haven't wrote anything in here for some time... well let's see, today i took a vocab test in english, took a physics test which was two days late, and took my pre cal test.. somehow i don't think i did too well on all of them.. eh, but my progress report made my day.. o yea! the highest grades i've got in a long time. hopefully i can keep them up...

well yesterday was the same as usual, go to school, come home, eat, sleep, do homework, eat, you know.. normal things that a bum like me would do. o yea, not to mention having someone blow up in my face yet again</font color=cc99ff>. the same arguments, the same "you're not living up to my expectations, i'm always right and you're always wrong", the storming off</font color=cc99ff> and trying to get the last word... and what not... it's really getting old.</font color=cc99ff> it's almost a normal routine now, as if it's their job to make sure i'm never happy as long as i live. i'm just really upset how often this happens... the high expectations just frustrate me... i guess some things will never change...</font color=cc99ff>